So, I know it’s only been four days since Friday, but those days seem to have been packed with, oh…just a lot of busyness, mixed in with a droplet or two of potential chaosity. So I’m taking a few minutes tonight to post a quick blog, reminding myself (okay, and you!) of the things that have been both grounding and happy-making.

1. Taking my first meditation class on Sunday. I’ve been hesitating and procrastinating and delaying and self-distracting, because of all the reasons in my mind-list that the class might not go well. Yeah. Duh. It was wonderful. Not that my knees didn’t ache or my feet didn’t fall asleep or I didn’t do plenty of shifting around on my bolster, but I really liked the teacher’s approach, and I enjoyed and was interested in the mindfulness talk she gave afterward. Next week’s class is already on my calendar.

2. Spending time with my WIP. Over the weekend, I sent off a very messy 1st draft of a picture-book to my critique group, then I stepped back into the world of my MG story. Looked at my plot arc, thought about the critique I got at a recent SCBWI conference, and had one of those THAT-won’t-work moments. I. Did. Not. Freak. Out. Instead, I opened up a brainstorming file, pushed myself past some of the more boring ideas, got into a discussion with my son about the best sequence of whining versus action (in the WIP, NOT in our lives!), and started resequencing some of the stuff in the plot planner. And, all the time, I got to watch my MC getting potentially  more interesting and, very possibly, more middle-grade.

3. Checking on a friend who could have been very not-okay and verified, with my own eyes, that she was truly, yay, okay.

4. Starting Syren, Book 5 in the Septimus Heap series.

5. Doing the occasional online crossword puzzle and listening to the triumphant blast of mini-trumpets when I complete it.

6. Wearing shorts and sandals during the day. Sleeping with the windows open during the night.

7. Remembering that most, if not all, problems can be addressed and modified, if not always solved. And remembering that family and friends are a big part of figuring out how to do it.

How’s your week going. What has made you smile in the past few days or, at least, settle into a place of calm?

This book. Wow. I’m not sure I’ve ever wished more to be able to describe the feeling that comes off the pages of a story, the sense, rather than the plot or the characters. Maybe I’m shooting for the voice, but that’s not much easier to explain or talk about than feeling.

I found Aaron Starmer’s The Only Ones by chance, browsing through the e-book pages at my library. I liked the cover, frankly. And it seemed like a middle-grade story, which I’m big into reading right now.

Seemed.

I try not to do the if you liked thing too much, or describe books by comparing them to others. BUT. While I was reading the opening chapters, other books kept popping into my mind. Not because The Only Ones is like any of them, or all of them in combination, or at all derivative of anything. Still, the titles that came to me were…The Phantom Tollbooth. The Little Prince. Lord of the Flies. And maybe the faintest hint of a picture book I read in my childhood, but that was published a couple of decades before I was born–Marie Hall Ets’ In the Forest.

I know, right?

(Okay, yes one other, more recent book, came to mind early on, but I’m not telling you that one here, because it would be a total spoiler. Which I didn’t realize until I finished the book myself. So no spoilers. If When you read the book, if you want to know the last title or share your guess either ask me for the info in a comment and make sure I can contact you, or send me a private message, and I’ll answer. But let’s not ruin it for the others.)

I’ve read a couple of blurbs of the book, and, frankly, I don’t like the way it’s being described. (Hey, you make me fall in love with your book, I’m going to claim partial ownership.) They all jump ahead, past the beginning, which, yes, sure, isn’t all fast-paced and zippity-doo-dah action.  Maybe it feels a little old-fashioned, but only in that it doesn’t feel (here I go again) like any of the books I’ve read that were written in the past few years. Not old-fashioned as in slow, or dense, or starting the story up at cloud-level and waiting forever to come down to earth where the characters are. None of those. Maybe it’s just that Martin, the boy in the story, is very isolated, and the beginning is solely his story, so the voice feels at once very close to him and at the same time very distant from anything else.

Because my least favorite part of writing a “review” is doing the summary, I’ll just link you to the blurb on Starmer’s page. But if your go over and read that, know, please, that so much more happens before Martin finds Xibalba. SO MUCH MORE. And, IMVSHO (in my very strong honest opinion), all of it is critical to the story, to getting to know Martin and all his whys, to getting introduced to the machine so that it’s part of the world before you find out how important it is (and, again, why). In the beginning, for many pages…Martin. Is. Alone. And this matters. It really, really matters. Because Martin is going to change, IN BIG, BIG WAYS, throughout the story, and Starmer has taken the time, given us the time, to understand Martin before those changes.

The book certainly doesn’t start out light or cheerful, but it starts out–I guess I’d say–intact and whole. Martin lives in a world that is, if narrow, understandable. That doesn’t last. The world breaks, Martin breaks, and–oh,boy–the other kids break. So, yeah, sure, it’s middle-grade, but…there is violence. And there is loss. And none of it is tiptoed around or gentled or placed in softly padded bags for us. In the middle of all that reality is some pretty special science-fiction. Maybe. It might be magic. This book is at once more real and less real than anything I can (yet) imagine myself writing.

So far. Because, hoo-boy, if I could write like this…if I could create this solid a world and this powerful a set of happenings and characters this quirky and creative all with a VOICE and a FEEL…

Some day. This is why I write, why I keep at it. And this is so, so why I read.

Okay, no, it’s not your TYPICAL spring music, but when you’re driving around in shorts & sandals on the warmest (so far) day of the year, and this comes on the radio, your car suddenly and magically turns into a convertible…and you’re cruising.

So you roll down the windows and turn up the volume, and you share the music with whoever wants to listen. And you rock out with the music, because you’re good enough, you’re smart enough, and gosh darn it all, you’re old enough not to care anymore.

And then this comes on, and you think, wait, that’s not R&B, and then your brain just says, hey, whatever, It’s Spring, and you keep the volume right where you’ve got it, and you bop your head side-to-side, and you keep rolling down the road.

I know many of you are still buried in snow drifts. And all I can do is send the music your way, and remind you of the first glimpses of Spring that Mr. Tumnus and the Beavers saw, the tiny signs that the long, cold winter was ending. I wish you all a Happy Spring and blow warm winds your way.

Today, I heard via Facebook that E.L Konigsburg has died. After the wave of sadness passed, my thought was that she couldn’t have been old enough to die. I know this reaction–it comes from being of middle-age in terms of years and body, but still being connected. by an unbroken thread, to the child who first read an author’s books: E.L. Konigsburg’s. Phyllis Whitney’s. Margot Benary-Isbert’s. The sense that both I and those authors are still, and always will be, the age we were when we first met.

E.L. Konigsburg is one of the authors who I got to read in more than one generation. Of course I read From the Mixed-Up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler when I was young. Oh, boy, how I wanted to be Claudia. I wanted not only to sleep overnight in the Metropolitan Museum of Art; I wanted not only to be smart enough to set the whole thing up and make it happen; I wanted not only to bathe in the fountain. Mostly, I wanted to have the courage that Claudia had, the drive to do that one very big, very different thing, to take that step and that risk, and to see it through to the end. The search through Mrs. Frankweiler’s files may not be the most adventurous section of the story, it may have a quietness to it that doesn’t involve hiding from museum guards and avoiding the truant police, but it is the scene that completes the story, that most clearly demonstrates who Claudia is and where her power and courage lie.

I’m also pretty sure I read Jennifer, Hecate, Macbeth, William McKinley, and Me, Elizabeth. I seem to remember the witch storyline, but I may be confusing it with one of Zilpha Keatley Snyder’s books, maybe The Egypt Game. Obviously, I have some rereading to do.So many of my favorite books from my childhood were one-offs, or two-offs, authors I found in the Scholastic Book Order Forms, but who either didn’t publish many more books or whom I didn’t track down to discover other titles.   Konigsburg, though, (like Keatley Snyder) was one of the writers I read in the seventies who hung around, who continued writing for the next many years, who not only kept her older books in print, but also wrote new things during the years I stepped away from reading books for children. (Yes, those years actually existed!) And she was one of the authors I rediscovered after I had a son.

I remember reading From the Mixed-up Files to my son. It was one of the books I knew needed to be a read-aloud, because–yes, it had an old-fashioned feel by the time he was old enough for it, and–yes, it was told from the point of view of a girl, and, yes–the boy character wasn’t a sure bet for reader-character identification. But still, I knew, if we just got a ways into it, that my son would like it. And he did. If I remember right, he loved the same things I had, although I didn’t remember all of them. Jamie’s money…that was a wow. Hiding in the bathroom stalls, collecting more money from the fountains. And, yes, Mrs. Frankweiler. She appears, in person, only at the very end, but what a character. What a presence. I have never seen the movie (something else to rectify, but I’ve always thought that Lauren Bacall would have played her perfectly. Just the right amount of high intelligence and curiosity, just the right amount of potential disdain, if you messed up.

And when I reread From the Mixed-up Files with my son, I went on my own exploration, the one I hadn’t done when I was his age. I started reading more of Konigsburg’s books than I had years before. I did read Jennifer, Hecate… I read About the B’nai BagelsUp From Jericho Tel, T-Backs, T-Shirts, COATS, and Suit I read and LOVED A Proud Taste for Scarlet and Minerva.

Some of those books felt like going home. Konigsburg wrote about the sixties and the seventies while she was living in them. Okay, a lot of authors did that. But she wrote about them as though she lived those years as a child. I was not Claudia. I was not Elizabeth. I didn’t live in a big city. I didn’t live in an apartment. I didn’t roam around said big city by myself or with a friend. I didn’t have adventures, and I didn’t take my make-believe much beyond my bedroom or my books. But when I read those books that Konigsburg wrote about the years, I was young, I feel like I am reading about my world at that time. The sixties and seventies are getting play right now in historical novels, and I can accept that. I can even enjoy it. But those stories pick out important details and facts about those years and weave them into the story, to add that historical feel. Konigsburg’s early books are soaked in that time. The kids dress, talk, dream, and act (outside the adventures!) like we did. Their parents sound like ours sounded to us. And, yet, Konigsburg was already in her thirties when she wrote them. Okay, not all that old, no, but still…this is someone who understood the world around her, the world about and in which she was writing. She saw it in the way her audience, her readers, saw it. And, in some ways, she saw it in the way I still do. This is talent. This is writing. 

I’m also pretty sure that Konigsburg broke rules. Not 100% positive, because, as much as I knew at that time that I wanted to be a writer, the only writing rules about which I was acutely aware were the (excellent and still applicable) advice Phyllis Whitney wrote in her books on writing and  the rules about good grammar and spelling that every teacher drummed into me and that I saw in every book I read. I wasn’t thinking much about market at the time, or about what made/didn’t make a children’s book. But, hey, A Proud Taste for Scarlet and Minerva? A dead queen’s point of view on court politics? A book for kids? It didn’t matter, did it? Because E.L. Konigsburg wrote it, and it was good. Her kids were so real. Not just for the sixties and seventies. Her nice kids weren’t always all that nice, and her not-so-nice kids had their surprise moments of nicetude. . Personalities put together in a scene created dynamics. Not only conflict, not just plot-movement, but the very real feel you get when people of different sorts come into a shared space and interact.Everybody had a depth that feels harder to find today, but maybe that’s just nostalgia. Or maybe it’s just forgetting that Konigsburg was so brilliant and comparing her to the mass of writers today, instead of to the equally brilliant ones, of which we definitely have our share

Still. She was just so good. And I will miss her, both as the reader I was then and the one I am today.

R.I.P, E.L. Konigsburg. And thank you.

I know. Living life well and with good mental health is about staying in the now. It’s about not worrying about what’s gone by (which I’m actually okay at) and not spending a whole lot of time thinking about what’s to come. Which, you know, is just the littlest bit hard if you HAVE AN IMAGINATION!

Today’s Friday Five is a quick toss-up of things that are taking my brain into the future, near and far, dropping pictures into my mind about what might be and what exactly those “mights” will look like.

  1. Plot-planning session with my critique group tomorrow. I can picture us all now, planning paper spread out, heads bent, the occasional shout of “Eureka!” along with a celebratory bite of chocolate. Some struggles, I’m sure, but I would also bet on camaraderie, hard work, and lots of inspiration.
  2. The 2013 SCBWI Spring Spirit conference in two weeks. I’ve sent a picture book up for critique, am SUPPOSED to have a one-page synopsis of the new WIP done by then (see #1 above and send power synopsis vibes!). I can see myself listening to Richard Peck do the keynote speech, sitting in awesome workshops, and meeting old and new SCBWI friends. I’m also heading up early on Friday to give myself some tourist time in Sacrament. I may hit the zoo and just commune a little with the giraffes, and/or I  may drop in at The California Museum to see the Ray Eames exhibit. One of my favorite great-aunts (I had and have  many great-aunts of awesomeness) was Charles Eames’ secretary, and I can so imagine the feeling of pride and love and missingness I will feel if there happens to be a photo of her anywhere in the exhibit.
  3. Spring break. Two weeks from now, we’re heading down to So Cal to check out a couple of colleges for our son. I have CDs by George Carlin, David Sedaris, and Terri Gross to keep us entertained, and husband just handed me his Starbucks gift card to stash in my wallet, because–as he says–there’s a Starbucks about every 200 feet on Highway 5, and we might need all of them! I imagine long stretches of silence in the car, mixed up with laughter and math and philosophy. I can see us on campuses, but only theoretical ones, because I’ve never been to the schools we’re looking at, and our son’s response (and ours) to each one is an open book right now. Which, as we all know, is a good thing.
  4. Summer vacation. Yes, you’re seeing a trend. One thing about going back to work–all of a sudden, vacations take on a whole new meaning again. Going away takes on a whole new meaning. We’ve decided on Ashland for the Oregon Shakespeare Festival. I’ve been, but husband and son haven’t, and we all love Shakespeare. Plus life is feeling just a little bit like, hey, two more summers and then…College. Son moving out. CHANGE. (see #5 below). What can I imagine? Us all coming in and out of whatever lodging I find, together and independently, because now we’re all old enough to do our own thing and then join together for a play or four. I can see husband and I jabbing each other simultaneously at some moment of THE TAMING OF THE SHREW, and all of three of us making judgments on whether this MIDSUMMER NIGHTS DREAM got Puck right or not.
  5. College. I know, I know, that’s WAY in the future. Not so much, it doesn’t feel like. Besides, I can worry/think ahead with the best of them, as far out as you can follow. And this is the one that stretches/challenges my imagination, as it probably should. I can see myself in the house, with Son miles away–who knows how many. I can see husband and I hanging out and, of course, talking about our son. I can see myself adding hours to work, hours to writing, and hours to yoga, and then coming home from it all and calling or texting my son to “hear” his voice for a minute or two/a line or two. I can worry and I can dream. And, yeah, as long as it doesn’t get out of control, I’m allowed to do it all.

Because, yeah, that’s what imagination is for.

Leave me a comment and finish of the line in the post title. “It’s hard to live in the moment when…” What’s coming for you that is lighting up your imagination?

I know, really? THAT organized. Well, no…more like a way to get past (around?) my fears about this kind of organization.

I have been lucky enough to know Martha Alderson, author of The Plot Whisperer: Secrets of Story Structure Any Writer Can Master, for many years. Lucky enough to have lived in the same town, to have shared a critique group with her, to have attended several workshops and plot-planning sessions with her. And I can tell you this–if you haven’t already figured it out for yourself: Martha knows her stuff. I have been amazed over and over, as I show Martha the work I’ve done on a story plot so far, only to watch her get a questioning look on her face, point her finger at a very specific spot, and say, “But what about X?” Bingo! Martha’s ability to spot the gaps, to zero in on what is missing or what goes off in the wrong direction, is fantastic.

But here comes my confession. The Plot Planner intimidates me. I’m not quite sure why–I have worked happily, many times, with the other big structural piece of Martha’s program–The Scene Tracker. Possibly, that clicks with my brain more because it’s linear: scene by scene by scene. I’m linear, in many ways. As a reader, no; I can jump around and make connections and tell you where an event was seeded, where the layers come in, how it builds to its own particular crisis–just try me. But as a writer…scene by scene by scene makes me happy. I’ve always felt a little bad that the Plot Planner and my brain didn’t synch up better.

Until I was reading through The Plot Whisperer book the other night and came across these words: …if [when you see a plot planner,] you scowl and fold your arms across your chest, sense yourself turning pale, or feel as if your eyes are popping out of your head, you are probably a right-brained, character-driven writer.”

Hey, I don’t think I’ve ever actually folded my arms across my chest. Okay, well, maybe. But I do panic a bit at trying to figure out which scenes  go where, how I can write neatly enough on a little sticky note to get my scene point across in just a few words, how I don’t end up with all my notes indicating passive, contemplative moments below the line.  Once again, Martha gets it. I’ve talked a lot on this blog about how much I love plot, adore structure, crave the little buckets into which to pour the words. BUT…I’m pretty sure that’s because plot does not come naturally to me, and because–consequently–I’ve spent too much time rambling around all that happy character stuff without getting anywhere. I don’t like not getting anywhere. As a reader, I’ve gotten more needy of plot, but for decades, you could hand me a pretty storyless book and I’d lose myself contentedly in all the character stuff. It’s why I can read a mystery novel for the third time and still not remember whodunnit. Russian novels? Read them for almost a decade, because…character. My favorite scene in The Secret Garden? Mary’s massive tantrum at Colin. Character. *Insert a few measures of Barbra Streisand’s People*

Anyway, what am I going to do about this? Well, I’m already doing it. A week or so ago, on Facebook, Catherine Meyer and Cheri Williams were posting photos of their plot-planning session. A session they did TOGETHER! My brain said…WOW! Plot-planning with friends! With other writers who know your pain story. With other writers who– when you lag–will give you a hug, a piece of chocolate, a few good brainstorming questions, and then kick you in the butt to keep going. ALL. HAPPY. DAY.

I ran it by my critique group. Unanimous YEAH. We’ve got a date set up. We know we might not get through our entire stories in that day, but we’re committed to working focused and long, and to scheduling another session if we need to get through to The End. We know things will change from what we write onto our Plot Planner: early plots are flexible and fluctuating (aha! Perhaps another root of my fear?). But we’re getting together, and we’re getting started.

And I’m not quite so intimidated.

For the past few years, I’ve started decorating my office space. Or maybe I’ve just started collecting. Mostly, they’re plush figures: about 95 percent are fictional, like one of the Wild Things and my Ernie & Bert dolls. Some are just slightly more real; on one shelf Jane Addams and Will Shakespeare sit next to each other, chatting about something. Don’t you wish you could actually hear that conversation?

But I have a few…things…that don’t fit the theme. They’re small, and in the days of CRT monitors, they’re the kind of collectible that would have sat on top of your monitor. In fact, that’s where my group did live. Now that my monitor has no top, they sit on the base. I like to have them there when I’m sitting at my desk–I don’t know if they actually inspire me to write or not, but I can pick them up and fiddle with them while I think. Or I can look at them and think about where they came from…what they mean.

Here’s a picture of the current gang.

totems

The turtle on the left with the #1 medal was made by my son when he was much younger, reminding me about the tortoise and the hair and reminding me as well to have patience with my sometime slow speed. The UCSC banana slug, also made by my son, is…well, he’s the mascot for UC Santa Cruz, and he is a reference to the first novel I finished and finished well. Despite (because of?) the tortoise speed.

And the bear fetish, I wrote about here.

Today, I was shopping in town, and I found a little guy I want to sponsor for membership in the monitor-base club.

flying pig

Cute? Pretty darned.  I think he looks a bit like a cross between Wilbur, on the day Fern first fell in love with him, and one of the Catwings felines. He was in a basket of other figurines at the store, but he “jumped” right out at me. Maybe it was the copper color, maybe the wings, maybe the sparkle. But, basically, he said one word to me: Magic.

Because, you know, pigs are really never going to be what you’d call aerodynamic.

Magic is something I want and need in my life. I’ve been in such a better mood about my writing since I made the decision to lay aside the YA historical and start on my new MG idea instead. (Forehead slap: When I think about it, I’ve been happiest EVERY TIME I started writing a MG book. Double-DUH!) Writing has started to feel like magic again, with the storyline and the characters and the words coming from I know not where. And, honestly, if you’d told me six months ago that this change would make me so much happier, I might have snorted and said something like, oh, I don’t know…”Yeah, when pigs fly!” Hello?

So, yes, my little Pigwings character is moving into his new home beneath the monitor. He’ll be another one I curl my hand around, run a finger over his carvings, look at and smile while I let my mind wander to good places.

I think the other guys will welcome him.

How do you decorate your writing space? What’s right in front of you while you work, unavoidably in your line of sight…except for those moments, of course, where you’re completely blind to your physical surroundings, seeing only story?

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